Recently i have gone trough a really rough patch and i have had to let go of one of the people i care about most... im not sure how i am supsoto feel... im not even sure how i feel...
right now im depressed... i go trough mood swings from good to bad from bad to worse from good straight to worse even from worse to great... im so confused right now
i just felt good because i was with a friend... but then i started to remember that person and it got me down again and i started to think about some of the good things... and then that led me to think of letting go and how much i regret saying good bye...
it makes me want to call this person up and say please take me back now i cant stand it without you... but i cant, maybe its more of just "i dont know how"

i have a major head ache and dont really think i will be going to bed late tonight
i really want some one to understand where i am with thins and i want them to help me out
what i want most is for things to be back to the way they where back in yesteryear when i was happy
it feels good to let this off of my chest but i feel like im talking to a wall some times... as it seems as only the very very small set group of people ever really talk to me... oh well i guess you few will read this and talk to me .. i hope